November 24, 2010

Day One: Your favorite quotes. completed 11/14.
Day Two: A letter to your best friend. completed 11/15.
Day Three: Describe your first kiss, where you were, who saw and how you felt when it happened. completed 11/16
Day Four: Tell the story of your favorite memory. completed 11/17.
Day Five: Three things that you’ve done in your life that you regret doing / not doing. completed 11/18.
Day Six: Three things that you wish you could do right now. completed 11/21.
Day Seven: Your favorite TV show, movie, song and book. completed 11/22.
Day Eight: Write a letter to someone that you’ve drifted away from and now miss. completed 11/24.
Day Nine: Five items you’d grab in a fire.
Day Ten: The hardest thing you’ve ever had to do.


day No. 8
a letter to someone you miss.

dear you,
most likely you don't know who you are or even care that i am writing this to you. but maybe i don't want you to know anyways. nobody will ever know who i am writing this to, so please readers, don't ask. but this goes out to someone who once meant the world to me. somebody who was once there for me through some of my hardest times. i went through a hard time in my life, and this boy helped me through it all. he was my best friend. we knew everything about each other, and were always together. whenever i needed to smile, i could count on him to put one on my face. i would always look forward to his daily texts that would just simply say, "caitlin :)". i had never met somebody quite like him. and i most likely never will. trying to determine exactly what happened between us is impossible. i've thought about it many times before, and no real solution comes to mind. all i know is that i should have never shifted the status of our relationship. i should have never told him that we were more than friends. that is what failed us. because as much as i loved every minute of that, i would give all of that up just to have your friendship still. but for some reason you did the one thing you promised me you would never do. you gave up on me. and you never even gave me an explanation. it stung for the longest time, and you will never understand how bad it hurt and how hard it had to work to recover. but life happens, and it puts challenges in front of us to overcome. and even though you seem to have forgotten all about me, and all about what we went through, it's okay. i'm okay. i have moved on. and so have you. but i look at you now and wonder who you are. you're not that amazing boy that i had once adored with all my heart. you're different now, so so very different. you refuse to treat me in a civil manner for who knows what reason. the last real words you ever said to me still ring in my ears when i'm around you, "i dumped you, and let's keep it that way." but, maybe someday i will see you again,, and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend.
sincerly writing you,
<3 heartwisher.

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